NOBODIES HAPPY!
How many times have you heard this saying?
A Quarter of a million, at least.
Well, it's true.
Things have been really stressful around here the past few days. Between running back and forth between the two houses, fixing up the new place, cleaning up the current house, driving to and from school and karate, taking extra lessons to brush up on my form for the tournament, Joe losing his wallet less than 12 hours before he has to fly to NM (and we still haven't found it), losing BOTH sets of keys to Joe's car (we did find one set just as we were leaving to the airport), my life has gotten a BIT out of control. Imagine that.
Notice, none of this is life threatening.
The new house is still livable, even if it's a bit dirty and in need of a serious face lift. The old house is remarkably clean, especially when you consider it's inhabited by four young children and three over worked, underpaid, adults. I've been driving my kids to school and karate for a few years now, it's nothing new, I should be use to it by now. The extra lessons are optional, no one is forcing me to compete and if I stink, chances are no one will care. Joe didn't find his wallet, but he was able to make it to the DMV with his passport in time to get a temporary license and he found an old credit card that was still active so he would be able to pay for his car and hotel. At least we have one set of keys so we can just make copies of it and won't have to get the car towed to the dealership in order to make new ones. Not TERRIBLE news, right?!?! It could always be worse, right?!?!
Of course.
So, after spending the last few days snapping at the kids for everything, and nothing, I noticed NO ONE was happy. Clay started falling apart almost the instant he woke up. The kids were moaning all day, instead of just right before bed...it was complete insanity. Literally, NO ONE seemed to be able to evacuate themselves out from under the cloud of anguish I had draped over myself.
Last night I decided it had to come to an end. I went to bed earlier. I set my alarm for earlier. I woke up and greeted my children cheerfully, and you know what? I really was happy to see them, and better yet, they were happy to see me! I had a lovely morning working on school work with Clay, snuggling in bed with Quin and Ali, laughing with Jacko and just enjoying my job as a mother. It gets better. I decided to take the day off from the other house and I went grocery shopping with the kids after Clay left for school. I walked Quin to school and brought snacks to eat along the way so we wouldn't have to rush home. I made cupcakes with homemade icing and sprinkles with Ali. I cooked a real dinner for the first time in about two weeks. It was delicious. I had everyone fed and in pj's by 7pm, which also hasn't happened in about two weeks. There was very little complaining, no yelling, no fighting...just nice. It was nice. Very nice.
It's days like today that make me enjoy being a mom, help me appreciate the influence I am on my children and the mood in our home. I want so desperately for our home to be a place where my children feel safe and loved. A place they want to be. I want to be able to talk to my children openly about their lives, my life. I want to be a good mother.
Today, I felt like a good mom.
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3 comments:
You are a great mom, Audri!!! I'm glad you gave yourself a break, I think we should all have those days. Life can just take over and get WAY to crazy!
you are such a good mom, to be able to come out of that and be happy...you are better then me...we would still be yelling at each other and whining! I promise. even though I feel like it is a huge responsibility, it is kind of invigorating to be able to change the mood of the house when we want hey? I love being a mom too! Yay for happy days!
Thank you, Audri...I needed that!
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